deadSilver

Sorry kung hindi po kita kinakausap personally, gusto ko po sana kitang makausap personally if given a chance.

Tinanong ko po ung address niyo para mapuntahan at makausap ka personally sa bahay niyo, I think that is the best place para mag-umpisa.

Hindi po kelangan ng mga reasons (or kung ano siya or kilala mo na talaga siya ) kung gusto mo or mahal mo ang isang tao, mahalaga po pagtanggap (both positives and negatives), kaya, frankly speaking, gusto po kitang ligawan kahit di po kita masyadong kilala.

I think courtship = friendship, at the end? But in different ways from the beginning?. Friendship long term then sila or hindi sila, courtship = eitheir long term/short term then sila or hindi sila pero pwede pa din sila maging magkaibigan, depende sa kanila. Importante is how both of you handle your relationships pag naging kayo for the lasting best results.

1. May mga tao po na di kayang magpayahag ng kanilang nararamdam personally (face to face) pero hindi ibig sabihin wala ung sincerity nila.

2. Meron din mga tao na pinapahayag ang pagmamahal nila sekreto, hindi alam ng mahal nila (I think medyo malamim eto at di ko kaya further explain).

3. May mga tao malakas ang loob na kinakausap ka personally pero hindi sila sincere.

I think the best from above is # 2, while 1 & 4 are normal, & # 3 worst.

Sorry po pala kung diretso ako magsalita at umaasa po ako na hindi ka magagalit sakin. Maraming salamat po ulit sa sulat.

Apr 07

dreams… nightmares…

be careful of the things you feed into your mind. Your dreams can manifest them. You might not know how you act when you sleep. #longdipslip

Apr 06

No one has ever loved as much as i love you

Mar 16

Mar 15

Feb 09

Moving forward… still living back

I know it’s been a year. I’m posting now, maybe because i might be, for the moment, full of inspiration to. I know they are so much in love. they are happy now. I am happy, honestly, for them. But maybe, they are happy now, because they left me, here, stuck, and still, trapped.

I do not want to be with them at the same place. I am not yet ready to cross with them on the open streets. I know the feeling of being so much in love. I know what they are feeling right now. For now, I’m not feeling the same.

Feb 01

Dec 08

Nov 30

with so much honesty…

I really don’t know if this is still right that I’m actually writing my thoughts down since nakapag usap n nmn tayo last time, but everything about you keeps popping on my head since then,”. Nakauwi n, nagweekend and nakpagleave n but the feeling still haven’t change a bit where it actually gotten worst. Let simply say “I can’t still get over you”.

Hmm..you may actually think n, Ano bng gusto ng tao n to? We already talked and already settle things and what does he actually want right now?

I had realize and thought of some things that I had not been able to tell you last time, probably thing that could let me ease the feelings I feel right now and move on forward (I hope so ) and things that could probably expaln where all this is coming from. Madz, your really a very nice and wonderful person that any guy could fall and ask for, where in this case you’re charm had caught me.

Sa simula pa lng po n dumating k sa ****, aaminin q na I really got so curious about you. *** actually calls me an *** cause everytime n may new face aq n mkita I actually search for that person and ganun nga I saw a new name on the ** list and it’s you. Gusto kita iaapproach back then but since magkaiba tayo ng group it’s awkward naman to check on you.

I don’t know if you still remember the first time we talked? I just actually walked away from my place khit wla nmn aq talgng ibang pupuntahan just to intentionally check if your not busy and approach you, ask your name and say hi, it would sound so simple but for me atleast magkakilala n tayo that’s what I’m thinking. Even the first time n magkasbay tayo maglunch I really thought n pumunta sa *** para yayain k mag lunch so that I could know more about you, this was the time where we actually got on the topic as you don’t have bf and said n meron on the past where biniro p kita (but in a good way).

(This line is omitted for privacy). But even from a distance the curiosity and mystery that I have for you still remain, may mga times n titingin aq sa lugar mo to check if ok k, I actually also made a habit to turn around ung upuan q so I could peek to see if your there . There a lot of things p actually and I know you really don’t notice it cause it’s my intention not to. Kya nga minsan pag ngsmismile k pag dumadaan there are some times that I really don’t have a reaction but deep inside wow..ewan q b„you just really thrills something inside me. I really don’t know if those smile really have something also or just a simple smile from a friend, cause what actually wrong right here is that all that I’m about to tell will be nothing if my assumption that there is atleast 1% of you like that me too.

Madz, what happen last weekend was actually something that I’m thankful cause I was able to open up something part of me to you. (This line is omitted for privacy).

Anyway’s I really wanna say more but I think as of now things can’t just be address on a mail. Yesterday I was actually awkward to approach you and I don’t know how, it seems I’m back to the man watching from a distance again. I am glad n nasbi q sayo 2 cause it’s quite a while n din it’s inside of me and I really don’t know if I’ll have a chance sooner or later to do this kaya mas ok n 2.

I’m really a jerk to say all this things cause I know I can’t continue with this what I have for you cause if it does I will be just hurting you on the process. I hope d mo po mamasamain ang email qng i2.

Please take care, also take some rest. Look forward that we could talked it time permits and perhaps if it’s still good with you . Thanks for everything.

Thank you for this person. I wish I can be like him, so honest and so straight. Some lines were omitted for his privacy.